It has been a while. As my Junior year winds to an end, I'm taking time to reflect on myself, this past year, and the years coming. ^^ As I continue my journey, please find it in your path to accompany me. 

Being able to relax and unwind is absolutely invaluable. For this whole year, I have been on fastforward and have not "breathed" or taken the time to enjoy where I'm at in my life. I've made a decision the past few days that has single-handedly affected the course I'm on. I've decided to not take 2 of my 3 AP Exams. 

Believe me, that was not an easy decision to make, but a necessary one. And I'm glad. It relieved me. On account of my only having a short time to journal now, I'm just going to run by you some of the things that have happened in the last couple days. 

Davy and I were just talking on gmail before I went downstairs to make some fries. It was a bittersweet conversation. Maybe bittersweet isn't the best word. Either way, I really feel his love for me. I feel Cory's and Michael's love for me too. It's... exhilarating. To be loved. It's a great feeling. I love my friends. Their friendship means the world to me. David and I... we're intwined. When he opens up and tells me his feelings of love for me, my heart becomes full. The same with my other friends. I think I first experienced this with Lupy. This feeling of intimacy between unrelated people. It's a phenomenon. 

I told David today that if I was still home, I'd have asked him to our senior prom. ^^ Lisi would have asked Cory. Just imagine the four of us going together. The thought is beyond my imagination. How great that would have been. Because of that thought, I want to save my money all next year and go down there twice: one for the prom and one for graduation. Wouldn't that be amazing? I wonder if it's possible. It's physically possible. I'd save from my job and buy a plane ticket in April for prom and in June for graduation. I could pack a suitcase and skip school for 1 or 2 days. I'd skip that Friday and Lupin would skip that Friday and we'd hang out the whole day. Actually, I'd want to stay at Lupy's for graduation so I'd stay with Yvonne this time. ^^ She might skip. Either way, I'd get ready and hang out with Lupy and hug ppl all Saturday until the night when I'd go with David to Prom. We'd stay up till forever in the morning and I'd leave on Sunday to get back to school. :) In that case, I probably wouldn't skip that Friday. I'd go after school. Then, for graduation, I'd do it all over again. Sounds amazing. They get out weeks before us. After they all graduate, it'll be their turn to visit me. A perfect plan. Haha. 

Well, besides that, the AP US Hist Exam was today. I congratulated TJ and Davy. I have yet to speak to Lupy. I bet she did amazing. Same with Cory and Bret and Milly and Michael. I have faith in them and in Goss. 

There's a lot going on at school. Yvonne's mom found her pron stash. Goss is getting fired. Zane and I are getting closer. Devan's annoying me. Cool Guy is being friendly. Jacob and I... our relationship isn't all that clear. Anyways, if and when I get time (it seems like I never do and never will), I'll relate it all to you. Until then.