It has been a while. As my Junior year winds to an end, I'm taking time to reflect on myself, this past year, and the years coming. ^^ As I continue my journey, please find it in your path to accompany me.
Being able to relax and unwind is absolutely invaluable. For this whole year, I have been on fastforward and have not "breathed" or taken the time to enjoy where I'm at in my life. I've made a decision the past few days that has single-handedly affected the course I'm on. I've decided to not take 2 of my 3 AP Exams.
Believe me, that was not an easy decision to make, but a necessary one. And I'm glad. It relieved me. On account of my only having a short time to journal now, I'm just going to run by you some of the things that have happened in the last couple days.
Davy and I were just talking on gmail before I went downstairs to make some fries. It was a bittersweet conversation. Maybe bittersweet isn't the best word. Either way, I really feel his love for me. I feel Cory's and Michael's love for me too. It's... exhilarating. To be loved. It's a great feeling. I love my friends. Their friendship means the world to me. David and I... we're intwined. When he opens up and tells me his feelings of love for me, my heart becomes full. The same with my other friends. I think I first experienced this with Lupy. This feeling of intimacy between unrelated people. It's a phenomenon.
I told David today that if I was still home, I'd have asked him to our senior prom. ^^ Lisi would have asked Cory. Just imagine the four of us going together. The thought is beyond my imagination. How great that would have been. Because of that thought, I want to save my money all next year and go down there twice: one for the prom and one for graduation. Wouldn't that be amazing? I wonder if it's possible. It's physically possible. I'd save from my job and buy a plane ticket in April for prom and in June for graduation. I could pack a suitcase and skip school for 1 or 2 days. I'd skip that Friday and Lupin would skip that Friday and we'd hang out the whole day. Actually, I'd want to stay at Lupy's for graduation so I'd stay with Yvonne this time. ^^ She might skip. Either way, I'd get ready and hang out with Lupy and hug ppl all Saturday until the night when I'd go with David to Prom. We'd stay up till forever in the morning and I'd leave on Sunday to get back to school. :) In that case, I probably wouldn't skip that Friday. I'd go after school. Then, for graduation, I'd do it all over again. Sounds amazing. They get out weeks before us. After they all graduate, it'll be their turn to visit me. A perfect plan. Haha.
Well, besides that, the AP US Hist Exam was today. I congratulated TJ and Davy. I have yet to speak to Lupy. I bet she did amazing. Same with Cory and Bret and Milly and Michael. I have faith in them and in Goss.
There's a lot going on at school. Yvonne's mom found her pron stash. Goss is getting fired. Zane and I are getting closer. Devan's annoying me. Cool Guy is being friendly. Jacob and I... our relationship isn't all that clear. Anyways, if and when I get time (it seems like I never do and never will), I'll relate it all to you. Until then.
Sonno Joi~
09 May 2008 @ 07:30 pm
Osashiburi desu
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16 April 2008 @ 08:40 am
Nothing Particular
Hello. ^^
I see all kinds of people have certain reasons for their LJ. Some use it as a blog, some for the communities aspect, and some for MP3 rotation sites. I was planning on just hosting some article things I've written but really it's much easier for me to just keep this as a second journal. I'll probably consider some blog or something in college, I hope. They sound fun. I probably won't have time for that either.
I want to several ethnographies on East Asian culture and it's effect on American culture in general when I get out into the work world. It might be a good idea to have a blog for my amateur research... Who knows.
I'm just writing this morning to write. At ten I'm gonna go to the gym to work out for a little... I need it and it's gonna help me get some self discipline so it's a win-win situation. Of course half of me doesn't want to go but I'll just beat that half up when I'm buff. :3 It'll be good. I'll go three times a week and DDR the other days I don't go. That way, with a balanced diet, I'll be healthy, FINALLY. T.T I've been unhealthy my whole life so I'm looking forward to doing something about it.
This is also part of my "self-independence" mode I'm in right now. I felt like I could drive to Massachusetts yesterday, that's how self-sufficient I felt. ^^ Of course first I have to learn to drive.
I'm going to start going to this church, I think, too. I'm definitely not Christian but in the past I've enjoyed going to churches with good politics. It should be interesting.
I've also been dying to do community service. This weekend I'm volunteering at my aunt's Spiritual Arts Fair so that'll be fun. Starting in the fall I think I'll start volunteering at this soup kitchen called Saturday's Bread. ^^ It makes me so happy I'm excited! I remember the first time I ever volunteered there (like 3 or 4 years ago). It was a lot of hard work but it was so great I still remember it (and I can't remember anything for that long). I yearn to go back. I just feel like I belong there.
Good things to look forward to in the future! Wish me luck!!! ;)
I see all kinds of people have certain reasons for their LJ. Some use it as a blog, some for the communities aspect, and some for MP3 rotation sites. I was planning on just hosting some article things I've written but really it's much easier for me to just keep this as a second journal. I'll probably consider some blog or something in college, I hope. They sound fun. I probably won't have time for that either.
I want to several ethnographies on East Asian culture and it's effect on American culture in general when I get out into the work world. It might be a good idea to have a blog for my amateur research... Who knows.
I'm just writing this morning to write. At ten I'm gonna go to the gym to work out for a little... I need it and it's gonna help me get some self discipline so it's a win-win situation. Of course half of me doesn't want to go but I'll just beat that half up when I'm buff. :3 It'll be good. I'll go three times a week and DDR the other days I don't go. That way, with a balanced diet, I'll be healthy, FINALLY. T.T I've been unhealthy my whole life so I'm looking forward to doing something about it.
This is also part of my "self-independence" mode I'm in right now. I felt like I could drive to Massachusetts yesterday, that's how self-sufficient I felt. ^^ Of course first I have to learn to drive.
I'm going to start going to this church, I think, too. I'm definitely not Christian but in the past I've enjoyed going to churches with good politics. It should be interesting.
I've also been dying to do community service. This weekend I'm volunteering at my aunt's Spiritual Arts Fair so that'll be fun. Starting in the fall I think I'll start volunteering at this soup kitchen called Saturday's Bread. ^^ It makes me so happy I'm excited! I remember the first time I ever volunteered there (like 3 or 4 years ago). It was a lot of hard work but it was so great I still remember it (and I can't remember anything for that long). I yearn to go back. I just feel like I belong there.
Good things to look forward to in the future! Wish me luck!!! ;)
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24 March 2008 @ 11:20 am
Hmh...
Good morning!
I really need to come up with a name for these little blurbs. This livejournal is entended to host semi-articles I write about various topics. It's sort of turned into my journal. I think I'll call these excerpts drabbles, because that's basically what they are.
I address my journal as a person, greeting it and whatnot. I ask it questions and call it "you". I see that's being mirrored here as well. That's okay though. No harm done as long as I keep these seperate from my articles (which I'll get to eventually).
I haven't accomplished much today. I got up at 8:30 and studied AP English. I don't know what it is but I got really fed up with it (a regular pattern now). I took a shower, started laundry, wrote a list for Dr. Ashbaugh (my Japanese History Professor), and looked up recipes for dinner this week that I can actually cook (my aunt's getting mad at me for cooking the same thing over and over). She usually decides what dinner will be and my sis and I cook it but she's getting tired of deciding since she doesn't eat it (if she didn't tell us what to make my sister and I would just be eating cereal for dinner). It's nice that she cares about our diet but I come from a background where for part of the year I'd only eat once a day and for the rest I'd eat what can/box was in the pantry/fridge. Home cooked meals are nice though. I'm trying really hard not to make my aunt mad so I look for recipes every now and then to make for dinner. I've more or less gotten used to eating "3 meals a day" but even so, everyday I eat a banana for breakfast and a cup of unsweetened applesauce for lunch at school. Those aren't really meals. And I don't eat enough veggies. Basically the only time I eat vegetables is when they're in yellow rice. But, at least I'm eating something. And I always eat 4 corn tortillas and an ounce of cheese when I get home. Then dinner is whatever is available: usually rice or pasta with lean ground turkey.
It's 11:36 already. Time's passing by so quickly. I better learn to manage my time better or I'm going to be in trouble once the AP Exams roll around.
Speaking of [mis]managing time, yesterday I quit studying around 3 PM and watched a marathon of Here Comes Ajumma for two hours. Then I cooked a really late lunch of corn tortillas and cheese (tee hee). About 6:00 I went upstairs (to the attic) to write here in LiveJournal. About an hour later I ended up watching Super Junior's Exploration of the Human Body (really great show) with my sister whom I somehow convinced to stop studying too. I called like 50 pizza places but no one was answering since it was Easter (I think). I ended up settling for Pizza Hut even though I prefer to support local businesses just because they were open. T.T I kind of regret not studying more but that's nothing compared to how lazy I'm being today. When I fail my Anthro and Am. Hist exams tomorrow I'll have no one to blame butSuper Junior myself. :3
I really need to come up with a name for these little blurbs. This livejournal is entended to host semi-articles I write about various topics. It's sort of turned into my journal. I think I'll call these excerpts drabbles, because that's basically what they are.
I address my journal as a person, greeting it and whatnot. I ask it questions and call it "you". I see that's being mirrored here as well. That's okay though. No harm done as long as I keep these seperate from my articles (which I'll get to eventually).
I haven't accomplished much today. I got up at 8:30 and studied AP English. I don't know what it is but I got really fed up with it (a regular pattern now). I took a shower, started laundry, wrote a list for Dr. Ashbaugh (my Japanese History Professor), and looked up recipes for dinner this week that I can actually cook (my aunt's getting mad at me for cooking the same thing over and over). She usually decides what dinner will be and my sis and I cook it but she's getting tired of deciding since she doesn't eat it (if she didn't tell us what to make my sister and I would just be eating cereal for dinner). It's nice that she cares about our diet but I come from a background where for part of the year I'd only eat once a day and for the rest I'd eat what can/box was in the pantry/fridge. Home cooked meals are nice though. I'm trying really hard not to make my aunt mad so I look for recipes every now and then to make for dinner. I've more or less gotten used to eating "3 meals a day" but even so, everyday I eat a banana for breakfast and a cup of unsweetened applesauce for lunch at school. Those aren't really meals. And I don't eat enough veggies. Basically the only time I eat vegetables is when they're in yellow rice. But, at least I'm eating something. And I always eat 4 corn tortillas and an ounce of cheese when I get home. Then dinner is whatever is available: usually rice or pasta with lean ground turkey.
It's 11:36 already. Time's passing by so quickly. I better learn to manage my time better or I'm going to be in trouble once the AP Exams roll around.
Speaking of [mis]managing time, yesterday I quit studying around 3 PM and watched a marathon of Here Comes Ajumma for two hours. Then I cooked a really late lunch of corn tortillas and cheese (tee hee). About 6:00 I went upstairs (to the attic) to write here in LiveJournal. About an hour later I ended up watching Super Junior's Exploration of the Human Body (really great show) with my sister whom I somehow convinced to stop studying too. I called like 50 pizza places but no one was answering since it was Easter (I think). I ended up settling for Pizza Hut even though I prefer to support local businesses just because they were open. T.T I kind of regret not studying more but that's nothing compared to how lazy I'm being today. When I fail my Anthro and Am. Hist exams tomorrow I'll have no one to blame but
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